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california, here we come.
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[05 Dec 2006|08:49pm] |
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lonley.confused.upset. |
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saosin |
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i dislike being sick.
i dislike missing school.
i have only missed two days and i already feel so behind..
i miss my friends.
i feel like i am losing all my friends.
well here are some things you've all missed out on..
i am moving.
the house is beautiful.
i have my own bathroom.
its on jackson street in GH.
we are going to start moving in after christmas.
my dad and i are still not talking.
my brother wants me to call him, i think i might,
once i figure out what to say..
i was going to move in with kellie and her family
my mom and i talked, and things are going well again.
i still dislike my moms fiance, very very very much so.
but, whatever makes her happy i guess.
my brother is moving out in april with ann.
i am happy for them, they are so happy.
i was thinking about dropping out of school and moving to rockford with a few friends i know that have an apartment there.
dont worry i am not going to, and dont yell at me, i've gotten enough shit already thank you.
i miss my infinites.
i miss sam and susan.
i miss you guys so much.
i am seriously lost without you girls.
i love jess and kellie more than anything.
i wish we could all get along.
i hate it.
you all mean the world to me.
i need to stop doing drugs, and being depressed.
its not doing anything for me.
i miss tara, jenn, lynzee, kirsten, and erin.
i just want my life back, i want my girls back.
i've never been so lost.
my family is not doing good right now.
my aunt has cancer, and i am trying my best to get the strength to see her.
its very hard.
i saw her sunday night and couldn't even handle it..
shes such an amazing person and i hate seeing her hurt.
and to make matters worse.
i met the most amazing boy in the entire world.
got scared [as always] and ran away from it..
fucked up [once again].
and now i am in the same place i started.
rock bottom.
and it hurts,
more than you could imagine.
i dont need your sympathy.
i just want my friends back.
that is all.
have a good week everyone.
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[23 Nov 2006|10:43pm] |
fuck yes.
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[11 Nov 2006|05:45pm] |
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the tide |
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[06 Nov 2006|10:03pm] |
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fuckedddd. |
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modest mouse |
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go team.
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[01 Nov 2006|10:08pm] |
but my mind knows better,
it picks you up and turns you around.
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[30 Oct 2006|06:44pm] |
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i'm okay.. |
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Something Corporate. |
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EIGHT last things:
8. last cigarette: A very long time ago.
7. last beverage: Coffee.
6. last phone call: Sam.
5. last text message: Andy.
4. last cd played: Saosin.
3. last BUBBLE bath: Three days ago.
2. last time you cried: Today...yeah fuck boys.
1. last meal: Homemade Chicken Noodle Soup.
EIGHT have you's:
8. have you ever dated someone twice: Yes.
7. have you ever been cheated on: Yes.
6. have you ever bought condoms?: Nope.
5. have you ever kissed someone & regreted it?: Yes.
4. have you ever fallen in love?: Nope.
3. have you ever lost someone... by death?: Yes.
2. have you ever been depressed: Yes.
1. have you ever been drunk and thrown up: Yes.
SIX things you did in the past week:
1.Made Kirstin a card because shes sick :(.
2.Had a sleepover with Jazzmen and Sam.
3.Went to Jeffrey's Halloween Party.
4.Hungout with Andy :).
5.Went to the Grandville Mall.
6.Hungout with Lynzee Diehl :).
list FOUR people you can tell pretty much anything to:
1.Jazzmen Stader
2.Sam Smart
3.Jake Kubon
4.Lynzee Diehl
list THREE favorite colors.
1.Brown
2.Red
3.Black
list TWO things you want to do before you die
1.Fall in love.
2.Get a tattoo.
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[24 Oct 2006|06:10pm] |
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cold.sick.tired.lonley |
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death cab for cutieeeeeeeeee |
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i'm tired.
it's cold.
i want to cuddle.
i am being a slutty baseball player for halloween.
i think sam is going to be one with me as well.
alright.
i'll leave you with this.
hahaha.
i love us.
[i'm sure you all know that the product in sam's hand is an alcoholic beverage, i just want to let you know that it is not her's.haha]
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[16 Oct 2006|08:40pm] |
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the starting line |
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[14 Oct 2006|10:57pm] |
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excellent |
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ciara |
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i love my girlfriend.
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[30 Sep 2006|05:34pm] |
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shake your money maker.
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[03 Sep 2006|05:28pm] |
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i love them.
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[27 Aug 2006|01:29pm] |
greatest fucking girls ever.
jenn, tara, lynzee, and kirsten thank you girls for one of the greatest nights ever.
i love you girls with all my heart.
and thanks bert, mb, and bruce for scaring the shit out of us.
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[14 Aug 2006|04:44am] |
when you think about the word trust,
trust.
whats the first thing that comes to your mind?
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[15 Jul 2006|04:04pm] |
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nerdy |
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kelly clarkson. |
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blahhhhh.
i miss people.
lets hangout sometime.
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[05 Jul 2006|02:58pm] |
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brand new |
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1. i got an MIP.
2. i hate my life.
3. i quit drinking for good.
4. ive never been so scared, so sick and so depressed in my life.
5. i am fucking stupid.
goodbye.
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[19 Jun 2006|02:04pm] |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAKE.
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.
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